.sick.

went over to jiefang's house to slack today. i am soooo sorry kns. i am seriously tired after all the walking and i need a day to recharge. sorry sorry... back to the main topic. i actually slacked my whole afternoon at her house again. we din do anything except chatting. it has been sometime since we last met. i guess the previous time we met was during the preparation for prelims. when was that? hmm... what was our conversation about? anything and everything under the sun. that's what i love about friends. you dont have to meet up everyday but there are endless topics to talk about. =)

i am suddenly disgusted by the upcoming event. it is a competitive event as quoted from my friend. come to think about it, it is damn true. we hope to dress in a special and unique way to stand out among all. we pray and pray all days and nights that nobody will wear the same attire as us on the same day. element of surprise? stunning? to me, what's most important is to enjoy yourself there. just feel good and you will natuarally look good. hmm... some may find this sentence contridicts my previous entry. WATEVER. I DONT CARE. i am in such a lousy mood these few days. my moods swing like nobody's business. crap! i am totally disgusted by everything now. i should just tear it, go to sleep and forget that it exists.

i feel bad. not guilty. there is a difference btw the 2 feelings. i should be nice. or rather, i should try to be nice.

"it is just me, myself and i"